How did I get here?

I can't really describe where my mind is this week. I feel like i've been in kind of a daze and just floating through this week. There has been some time to step back and take an introspective look at where I am in my life, and it really hasn't produced any surprising answers.

I'm 26 years old, and about to get married. I have a steady job, a house, a dog and the drive and ambition to succeed at a number of things throughout my life. My goals are obtainable, the method at which I plan to obtain those goals is ever-changing, but I still find myself along a very recognizable path. I've had plenty of surprises and things aren't exactly as I'd pictured them, but I really don't have any complaints.

I don't know why I'm feeling so "goo-ey" this week, but its given me a chance to recognize what's going on.

I'm getting married in 50 days to the most wonderful woman in the entire world. :-) She puts up with all of my idiotic ways and lazy habits and still manages to make me smile every minute of every day. I've never been good with words that express how I really feel about her and I know I'm not doing her any justice by trying to spell it out on a blog, but it has been one of the biggest things going through my mind these last couple of weeks. I guess i'm just really excited that the big piece of my life puzzle has fit so well into what I had hoped it would be.

Along with the wedding stuff, its come to my attention that the family chapter of my own life is about to begin. Trevor put it perfectly when I was watching him last weekend. "Uncle Kevin, when you marry Kelsey, you're going to be the Daddy and she's going to be the Mommy." Wow.. thanks Trevor, you hit it right on the head. At some point down the road Kelsey and I will have kids, all boys by the way. We're naming them Stuart, Oscar and Yosemite. (That oughta keep the grandparents guessing for a couple days) But with that realization comes the fact that I'm going to have to try and parent these lovely boys of ours. Growing up as a kid with a strict curfew I always swore I would do things differently. Now that I'm here I still think I will do things differently although not as I had originally thought. :-) You can expect that statement to change over time as well.

Yeah, growing up is hard. :-) I still enjoy things like video games and playing imaginary games with the little kids, but this whole responsibility thing is exciting too. I always hoped I'd be an active dad with whatever my kids will want to do. I can see that if we do have those three wonderful boys, Kelsey may have to kick us off the video games early Saturday mornings if she wants any help around the house. And if by some miracle we have 3 girls, well, then maybe I'll just have my own little room with a TV and video game setup as my own personal "retreat" room.

:-)

Ho-K Peace out.

(This post was published without any discussions on names with Kelsey. Those are the names of our three boys though.. believe me.. ) :-)